its the last day of chinese new year holidays. shucks. so fast. the one thing i'm dreading is the skit. aaahhh... and its fast approaching. :S they said o'level results are going to be released on 6th feb. which is like next monday. oh my goodness. 6 days left before reality hits me. 6 days of freedom left. 6 days before all the decision making comes on. ignorance IS bliss. which is how i'm living now. ignorant of my results. heh.. hais.. i pray that whatever my results will be, i will continue to praise God for it. if God let me have those results, then it shall be good for me.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 ; 10:25 PM
i've been sabo-ed into being one of the 2 main characters for the skit. i have no idea what exactly happened cos i was pretty sick when they arrowed me and i couldn't really protest against it. anyway i'm scared to death cos i've never done ANY acting before. in the skit, i have to be abused and act cute. and we're doing up this skit for the entire school at st margaret pri sch's morning assembly. aarghh!!
movie wishlist: 1) memoirs of a geisha 2) cheaper by the dozen 2 3) i not stupid too
Sunday, January 22, 2006 ; 4:42 PM
friday: we had revelation at st james' church. its a time when all the anglican youths worship together. it was pretty good. i remembered pastor fu-man telling us before, worshipping God by jumping and raising hands is a form of worship to God. but sometimes it might become just an act, and not truly worshipping God. then during revelation, i kept in mind to focus on God and at the end of the day, it should always be the heart of worship that counts. and that's what God delights in. :)
saturday: i highlighted my hair. for free. heh..
sunday: i fell sick. and i think i deserved it, for sleeping late everyday. aahh..
Thursday, January 19, 2006 ; 12:07 AM
new template! i love the glitters. :) hope this won't produce anymore pop-ups.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 ; 11:53 PM
the muscle aches from ballet which took me one week to recover came back in just one hour. *oww* i woke up with flu and slight sore throat today. i think i'm going to fall sick soon. the last time i fell sick was around last year's march ah.. i think the virus will be getting to me soon. :(
i went kuishinbo for dinner today! yea! haha.. its a sushi buffet restaurant and there were SO MUCH food to eat. haha.. this is so absolutely sinful. :P and kuishinbo has got this really interesting event. like at least every half an hour they will play this irritating sound which goes " pom pom pom, 1 2 3, we are kuishinbo.. pom pom pom, 1 2 3, we are kuishinbo" and it goes on and on until the announcer declare the promotion of let's say the mushi ice cream or black pepper lobster will start immediately for the first 30 to come to the counter first. haha.. then i will get excited and call my sis and deyao and quickly go and queue up. haha.. cos i was sitting right inside and won't be able to get out and anyway i was too pai seh to rush for such things. then i became so full i felt like puking whenever i smell food. hahaha.. n my sore throat is getting worse. oh wells. reached home at 1115. so freaking late. *yawns*
Monday, January 16, 2006 ; 11:14 PM
we went pool again today! haha.. it's so addictive. and i just set a new record again! 4 balls in a row. yea! haha.. this time, i went with charmaine, xin hui, sam, xing qing (i think that's how its spelt. anyway, charmaine calls him Mood. haha..) and xian jie.
after that i went for my 2nd ballet lesson. so fun. we did jumps today. at first it was all so confusing but i caught up soon. heh.. and there's a ballet bow which you do at the end of your performance. so nice. that was my favourite part. :)
Saturday, January 14, 2006 ; 11:43 PM
my interest in guitar has been reignited. i hope it lasts. im feeling pretty angry and frustrated and irritated now. one thing i learnt at SERVE. when you're angry, it's the best time to pray to God and pour it out to Him. i shall do that.
Friday, January 13, 2006 ; 9:39 PM
Today is a pretty happening day. I had SERVE as usual, which ended at 1pm. Then had lunch at the coffeeshop nearby with Gordon, his groupmate Aaron and Pastor Fu-Man. Then me and Gordon left early. We wanted to take the train from Potong Pasir back home and just when he was wondering where Lionel was, we met him at the train platform. Haha.. He was with a bunch of people: Lydia, Crystal, Regina, Triston, Joshua and were going to Dhoby Ghaut to play pool. They asked me along and I thought it sounded fun and I've got time to kill. But I didn't know them really well but on account of Lionel and Lydia, who is my groupmate, I went with them.
We played pool at this pretty ulu place called Singapore Plaza near Park Mall. At first I sucked at pool and didn't even know which hand to hold the stick. Haha.. The ball flew several times but then after a while, I improved alot, even if I do say so myself. Haha.. Seriously. My best record was getting balls into the hole successfully 2 times in a row. Heh.. So fun! :) By the time we left the pool place, only me, Lionel, Regina and Triston were left. Then Triston wanted to drop by Secret Recipe where Joshua was working at to disturb him. Haha.. And so we went. Regina and me shared an ice cream, Lionel ordered Oreo cheese cake and Triston ordered fudge, cheesecake and smoothie. He later purposely got Joshua to take his order of distilled water which costs 50 cents, to irritate him. Haha.. And he did that TWICE. Haha.. Some people got too much money la. Heh.. Joshua got us the bill and we paid up and continued sitting there and talked for almost an hour before we finally left.
Lionel left, leaving Me, Regina and Triston. We went Yamaha where I needed to get guitar strings. Then we went to X-Zone to play Daytona, basketball and that freaking Bishi Bashi game. So irritating. I suck at it though I quite like that game. By then, it was around 815 and we went home. Reached home at around 905.
Earlier today, I was ready to go home straight after lunch until I met them and had so much fun with the people whom I didn't even know before. Heh.. So cool. I've made more friends today! Cheerios! :)
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 ; 10:59 PM
Today I woke up pretty early at 7.45am and pulled everybody out of bed for breakfast at Delifrance. Haha.. Then to church for worship ministry meeting. Can really sense the Lord's presence amongst us and the time of bible discussion was great too. In around 7 verses, there's so much to be discovered and interpreted. It's no wonder Dr Mary Tay from SERVE described the bible as a miracle book. :)
Then we went to Xu En's house. Claudia's mum prepared a spread for us to bring to his house. Pasta, chicken drumsticks, and there's the stew made by Xu En's sister. Yum! And there's his dog. So cute!!! Her name is Bing Bing. Haha.. Her face looks flat and I love her soft fur. Haha.. Can use her as a pillow. Oh man.. I want a dog of my own too!! Then we went to Xu En's room to play mahjong. I think I won the most rounds. Beginner's luck la. Haha.. And that Ding Yi crapped so much and I laughed until I chou jin-ed and almost ended up rolling on the floor. Haha.. Seriously arh.. Ding Yi can be so incredibly funny la. Sien is so lucky.. Haha.. :P
I think I'm getting old. I don't think I've done much today yet I'm so tired. And my leg hurts from yesterday's ballet. :S
Sunday, January 08, 2006 ; 10:54 PM
Ok. SERVE has been pretty great. The lectures are intriguing and interesting and the people are lots of fun! I've made a lot of new friends too and it's just the 3rd day. :) Well, I hope to be able to learn more about the bible and about God in the next 2 months. But the only downside of it is that we are supposed to read one book of the bible (we choose it randomly by drawing lots) and write a summary of it in less than 200 words and present it to everybody within 3 minutes. And it's due TOMORROW. How's that? I never expected homework too. But yeah. Anyway, I picked 2 John and 3 John (which adds up to only 1 page of the bible) and then there was a mistake in the drawing of lots and we got to draw it again. Then I picked GENESIS. God bless me. I'll never finish 50 chapters of the book in less than a week. It's pretty scary cos 1) I may be the first to present since I got the first book in the bible and 2) presenting in front of at least 65 people? I can't do it without choking on my saliva cos it's so unnerving. Okay. I shall stop thinking about it. After I finish this entry I gotta go do my homework, otherwise I'll have to feign illness tomorrow. :P
Let's talk about today. I had to do Welcome Ministry in church. Then during the announcement time, Pastor Wong announced that 3 youths were involved in the SERVE programme and asked us up the stage for everybody to pray for us. He didn't tell us beforehand that he wanted to do this. Ok so anyway, that's not the main point. After he talked a bit, he passed the mike to Gordon first and asked us to say a few words. We were caught offguard cos we weren't expecting this. When it was my turn, I just.. say a bit of stuff and passed it on to Lionel. Haha.. Ok. I think I appeared every bit as nervous as I felt. Shucks. Then they prayed for us in tongues and everything. So did the Chinese congregation. Suddenly I felt so empowered after the commissioning (i dunno if that's what it is).
I feel bad about this too but it gets increasingly frustrating, especially when you need to face one of the most irritating person practically everyday. Correction: I mean EVERYDAY. God, please bless me with the divine patience I need to bear with the things which seriously gets to me.
I've been tagged by Vanessa and now I gotta do this: Rules of the game: 1) Post 5 weird/random things about yourself 2) At the end of the quiz,list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this and leave a comment "U R tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your 5 random things and continue the game!
1) I have no earlobes. I think I'm the minority cos practically everybody has earlobes (more or less), except me. :(
2) There's a small hole on my left thigh.
3) I'm so proud of this, that I've got the AB blood. Haha.. According to statistics, only 5% of the Singapore population has it. :)
4) Curling my tongue was something I managed to accomplish after years of practice. :P
5) I used to have an imaginary friend. ;)
I tag.. Vanessa, Joanne, Jiening, Xianjie and Amelia. :)
Monday, January 02, 2006 ; 10:50 PM
School's starting tomorrow and I've come across lots of people saying that they aren't looking forward to it at all or they don't want school to start. But the truth is, they don't know how lucky they are to be able to go to school. I very much want the chance to attend school tomorrow just like most people are. But I couldn't. It would be a lie to say that I'm totally happy that I don't have to start school yet. Sure, there won't be schoolwork and I can continue enjoying myself. But the thought of missing (schoolwork aside) all the fun and orientations and meeting new friends for the first time just like everybody else makes me feel really left out and perhaps, underprivileged. This feeling sucks. And I must be out of my mind to want to go to school so badly because at least a year ago, this mindset would have been the exact opposite. Perhaps to be put in a helpless and defeated situation will really give you a different perspective.
Dear God, please help me be assured once and for all that SERVE is what I should go for. And while You're at that, please cast away all the anxieties and fears and worries that I have. Thank you.
Sunday, January 01, 2006 ; 1:57 PM
Bold those that apply to you I miss somebody right now. I don't watch much TV these days. I love olives. I own lots of books. I wear glasses or contact lenses. I love to play video games. I've tried marijuana. I've watched porn movies. I have been in a threesome. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe that honesty usually is the best policy. I curse sometimes. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. I'm TOTALLY smart. I've broken someone's bones. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. I hate the rain. I'm paranoid at times. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. I love sushi. I talk really, really fast. I have fresh breath in the morning. I have long hair. I have lost money in Las Vegas. I have at least one sibling. I was born in a country outside of the U.S I have worn fake hair / fingernails / eyelashes in the past. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. I like the way that I look. I know how to cornrow. I am usually pessimistic. I have a lot of mood swings. I think prostitution should be legalized. I think Britney Spears is pretty. Slept with a suitemate. I have a hidden talent. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. I have a lot of friends. I have pecked someone of the same sex. I enjoy talking on the phone. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. I LOVE TO SHOP!!! Enjoy window shopping. I would rather shop than eat. I would classify myself as ghetto. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. I don't hate anyone. I'm a pretty good dancer.. i think? :P I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. I have a cell phone. I watch MTV on a daily basis. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. I've rejected someone before. I like someone. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to have children in the future. I have changed a diaper before. I've called the cops on a friend before. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club. I'm not allergic to anything. I have a lot to learn. I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. I am shy around the opposite sex. mostly bah..:P I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. I have at least 5 away messages saved. I have tried alcohol or drugs before. I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. I own the "South Park" movie. I have avoided assignments at work / school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum. I enjoy some country music. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. I watch soap operas whenever I can. I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. I have used my sexuality to advance my career. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story". Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. I have dated a close friend's ex. I like surveys. I am happy at this moment. I'm obsessed with guys. Democrat. Conservative Republican. I am punk rockish. I am preppy. I go for older guys/girls, not younger. I study for tests most of the time. I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. I can work on a car. I love my job. I am comfortable with who I am right now. I have more than just my ears pierced. I walk barefoot wherever I can. I have jumped off a bridge. I love sea turtles. I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. I believe in prophetic dreams. Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. I'm proficient on a musical instrument. I worked at McDonald's restaurant. I hate office jobs. I love sci-fi movies. I think water rules. I went to college out of state. I am adopted. I like sausage. I am a pyro. I love the Red Sox. I have thrown up from crying too much. I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. I love kisses. I fall for the worst people. I adore bright colors. I love Dear Abby. I can't live without black eyeliner. I think school is awesome. I think pigtails serve a purpose. I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. I usually like covers better than originals. I don't like multi-textured ice cream. I think John Cusack is adorable. I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays I watch Food Network way too much. I love coaching youth sports. I can pick up things with my toes. I can't whistle. I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. I have ridden/owned a horse. I still have every journal I've ever written in. I can't stick to a diet. I talk in my sleep. I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. I have jazz in my blood. I would not be friends if they weren't family. I wear a toe ring. I have a tattoo. I love vaginas. I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. I am a caffeine junkie. I know who Santos L. Halper is. I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed. I love wrestling. I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. I have been to over 15 conventions. I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. I'm an artist. I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made. I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession. I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid. I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products. I only clean my room when neccesary. I have pointy-ended ears. I love korean dramas.
; 12:10 AM
my first entry of the year. yay!! it's year 2006! ashamed to say this but I've been looking forward to this year ever since I was sec 2. firstly because i wanted to leave cedar asap and secondly, for o's to finish. heh.. it had been a pretty happening year, though it mostly consisted of studying (and a fair bit of slacking too, i might add). but ironically, now that i'm leaving cedar, i'm sure going to miss it. but oh well, it's time for new challenges for me as the new year approaches.
my new year resolutions. hmm.. 1) study consistently 2) quiet time everyday (i MUST try to do that, though i often don't. :P) 3) have a neat and tidy room 4) stop peeling my nails 5) stop disturbing my pimples 6) be more sociable 7) don't watch too much tv 8) stick by my resolutions there are more. but i'll add on to it next time. :)
I am..
koh wen yuan rachel
nineteen
31051989
child of God
dancer
sacc
nus fass
Talk To Me
Wishes
iphone
acoustic guitar
the duchess
confessions of a shopaholic movie
bride wars